Hello all! So I figured it was about time I test the waters with this blogging business. Eeek!
It's funny before I had a blog I had all these thoughts running around in my mind that would have make for some pretty excellent blogs however now that I actually have an outlet for those thoughts I can't think of a single thing. The same thing happened to me when I finally bought a journal after beginning my walk with the Lord back in August my mind was flooded with all these new thoughts and understandings of life, then I buy a journal and suddenly I'm longer in the word and doing my daily bible study thus no longer having anything to write in the journal other than the fact that I felt spiritually void...over and over again. For awhile it was like when you wake up thirsty in the morning and you know you need a nice cool glass of water but instead you drink coffee and then later in the day some pop or juice and by the end of the day you've had plenty of beverage yet still no water, your dehydrated, you know NEED the water, you WANT the water but you just don't drink any. That's how it was with me and being in the word, I knew I needed it and wanted to be in it, it just didn't happen. Well good news, I found my way back to my bible on a daily basis again, I even bought a new pink one, oh so exciting! And oh man how much better do I feel. It was such a great reminder how helpless I am without the Lord, how I can do nothing without Him. Its crazy how much better my days are if I start them out in the word!
To help me read daily and because this bible business was so new to me and not knowing exactly where to go I got some bible studies (women of faith to be exact) they are somewhat cheesy but in all honesty I'm a total chesse ball so I love it! Ha-ha. Currently I'm going through a study on cultivating contentment. I didn't even get this one because I felt I needed it, if I remember correctly it was on sale and had a pretty cover so I was sold but I recently realized how desperately I did in fact need this particular study. Alright so the point of all this is to share that I've recently realized (yesterday) ...are you ready for this...that I'm a BIG time complainer..imagine that! Seriously though, I never really realized how much I whine and grumble about what's wrong in my life or that particular day or even just grumbling and growling at that "idiot" that doesn't know how to drive or cut me off ( and yes I literally mean growling, it has recently been my replacement for profanities) Overall it has been a great eye opener to how little things like being peeved at the sloooow driver in front of you can lead to complaining and ungratefulness in our hearts that will eventually be a barrier between us and God, and a great reminder how important it is to try and be content in any situation.
"A fool gives full vent to his spirit but a wise man quietly holds it back" Proverbs 29:11
